Coming into this class my goals were those handed to me by the collegiate system and nothing more. All I wanted to do was complete the work and get a good grade in the class. The issue quickly took hold of, “What am I actually getting out of this class?” When I allowed myself simply be a passive learner I quickly found myself disinterested in the topics at hand, and more willing to pursue other topics that pervaded into my mind –critical topics that seemed to be more rooted in reality. I couldn’t –and can’t– change Cornell College from being the institution that it currently is. So the disinterest quickly turned to negligence, and what’s worse I began to define that negligence as something I was doing for a reason. I said to myself, “College isn’t worthwhile, you should be trying to have a direct effect on the world.”
It’s an easy misunderstanding. The meaning of college can become blurred, especially when you view it as simply trying to obtain a degree. That’s exactly what I did. The post-industrial corporate world is quick to snatch up accomplished students with degrees, but what does that mean? How does it affect the world if another student files through college, just completing the work, and moves on to a job in the corporate world similar to everyone else’s? How do I find personal meaning in my own life by falling into this pattern when there’s so much a young person could be doing for the world? Between searching for answers to questions that were unrelated to the class, and trying desperately to find the meaning of my progress in the educational system, it wasn’t long before work in the class began to seem frivolous.
That’s when I realized there was another side to the education system. A friend of mine pulled me aside one day and said, “You want to help people, yes? You want to change things? Well, even if you have beliefs about how you might do that, you need to learn to make an argument. The reason I’m so liked in the English department is because I can talk back to the teachers. They love to be proven wrong.” I wrote in my essay describing a liberation-based education system, but that’s not what we have. We’re not working to dialogue openly in the classroom, but we are in an academic argument with the teachers. If you want to join the corporate system and earn a comfortable life, that’s fine. But if you want to take the other path, that’s available to you too. That’s what I realized about college this block.
So I have to learn to take control of my education in full. I have to learn to develop retorts to material as I’m reading it. I have to learn to cooperate with my peers to find those I can work with who won’t passively accept things. I have to attend class daily and constantly be looking for new opportunities to speak back publicly against the system that I so thoroughly despise. And in the end, I’m not just going to be learning how to talk back to the teacher; I’m going to be learning how to talk back to society. If I stick with this plan of learning, I’m going to develop the skills I need to demonstrate to people why things need to change, how the system has gone wrong. This is the path I’m taking, and this is the outcome I’ve come to understand. I invite you to take whatever path you like.